I've been penning this blog for a year now and thought I'd take a few minutes to look back at what this site has become for me.
I've been writing dirty stories in various shapes and sizes since I was a teen. I consider those first letters that I used to pen for various Dominas my first attempt to put into word the feelings and fantasies that I was coming to grips with after my "discovery" of BDSM.
The "various Dominas" were those fine ladies of Domina Express, a publication filled with ads from Dommes around the world. It was similar to the DDI (Domination Directory International) but less glossy and catered more to a less professional crowd or at least that's what I thought. Through a scattershot effort to find a Dominant woman with which to correspond or serve (I was hoping for at least a conversation!), I discovered that a lot of these "real women" were actually some kind of front for a business. I kept getting the same response letter from various "ladies" -- all with the same nasty perfume smell and all with the same flowery font. And, alas, all with the request to send money. It was quite an eye-opener.
However, there were a few real women to be found in the pages of Domina Express as well as the pages of a local independent paper's classified ads. That's where I found Sybarta along with a few other Domme ladies with which to speak. Some of them I spoke to for years.
Through those early days, I began to open myself via prose and explore some of the oddball thoughts rolling around in my head. I went back to the things that piqued my interests and why they might have. Since correspondence was relatively "safe," I tried to not hold anything back. I know that I did -- and still do -- but I feel safe here, too, and I don't mind sharing as much as I do. Thanks for all of your support.